Should I learn to love less

Tonight I found myself making an excuse to get out of the house, just so I could drive the back roads and clear my head. I saw a post on Pinterest earlier that stated “when a Pisces is upset they tend to overthink a lot and everything hits them all at once”. Couldn’t be more spot on. Tonight it hit me all at once.

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I am always the one in a relationship whether it be a lover or friend to love more. I used to have friends. I was always the shoulder to cry on, the listener, the designated driver, and so on. Always. Once I started noticing that it didn’t go both ways in relationships, I ended them. I have no girlfriends. No one to talk to, like deeply talk to. 90% of the time it doesn’t bother me. I don’t mind being alone. I think I fill my void with shopping. I buy new things and it’s like the things are my friends. That sounds a lot crazier now that I’m reading it. But it is what it is.

The guy I’ve been talking to is more confusing than anyone I’ve ever met. Why do I still like him? Good question. When we are together he seems genuine. He calls me babe and send me smiley faces when we text. Which isn’t very often. Super confusing. Earlier this week he said he wanted to take me to dinner one night.. This week. It’s almost Saturday, no dinner. Haven’t even seen him. I should probably take a hint by now. But then he will throw me a curveball and say something that makes me think otherwise! Again, super confusing. Hopefully I’m just overthinking the whole situation, ya know, since Pisces do that.

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I guess my point is, it's great to love. Life is all about love. But I don't think it's necessarily good to love more. In most cases, I feel like people will take advantage of you if you love more.

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Value

Crashing Bashfully

Somedays I’m not sure what I mean to you. Some days I’m not sure how much I mean to anyone. Life these days are so busy that I barely have time to eat, let alone form relationships or even maintain them. For me and my life, I know that I am valued by some and by others, I mean nothing. But to you, you tell me that you love me then you go and ignore me. You tell me you put me first, but have you considered yourself in that equation? I found that people put everyone first, behind themselves of course. You tell me you care, but you show no interest. You tell me you’ll be there, but are nowhere to be found. You tell me I’m worth more than that, but you treat me the same as everyone. My value is more than your affection. My value is…

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Axioms III

From Reel To Real

1- Most of women want a man who makes her laugh, simple as that. You can’t imagine what a woman willing to do for a man who makes her happy.

2- Love is a beautiful war.

3- Women are like art. The complicated they are from the outside, the beautiful they are from the inside.

4- Don’t grieve. For everything you lose, there is something you gain.

5- There is no such a thing as “Right time.” Now is as good a time as any, so don’t waste it.

6- Don’t give up. If It worth, It won’t be easy. 

7- Be yourself, Its the best you can be.

8- Do you wanna know what women fall for? A real man. A man who can listen. A man who care. A man who is there in the darkest time. A man who is willing to fight for her, a man…

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The Advice You Need To Hear After A Breakup- as told by dr. Phil

I saw this on Facebook today. A post from dr. Phil about break ups. Although I don’t always like what he says, this was a pretty good article.

Having your heart broken sucks. But here’s a piece of good news: Putting it back together doesn’t have a thing to do with your ex. It’s all about you. Not saying it’s easy, but there are ways to minimize the damage and come out stronger.

1. You can’t change what you don’t acknowledge, so get real about your situation.

Don’t try to con yourself: this relationship is over! For whatever reason, your ex doesn’t want to continue a romantic relationship with you. Until you understand and accept that, you won’t be able to begin the healing process.

2. Decide the most important relationship is the one with yourself.

Sure it’s nice to have a romantic relationship, but it’s not necessary. You can be a whole person without being half of a couple. The old saying is true: It’s better to be healthy alone than sick with somebody else. You’re only lonely if you’re not there for you. If you’re terrified of being alone, you may suffer from low self-esteem. Now’s as good a time as any to get in touch with your authentic self — the true, genuine substance of who you were created to be, including the skills, talents and wisdom you bring to this world. Your authentic self is the part of you not defined by your job, function or role, nor is it what you believe you are supposed to be. Do you truly know and like yourself?

3. Put this in perspective.

Does it hurt? Yes. Will you miss certain things about your relationship? Sure. Is it the end of the world? Absolutely not! You’ll get through this heartache. Just take it day by day.

4. Stay in the game.

If you decide to be miserable all the time, you’re bound to miss out on good opportunities. Don’t let a breakup cheat you out of living a full life. Learn to laugh again.

5. Resist the temptation to rekindle the romance.

You may be tempted to try to get back together with your ex or to at least pick up the phone and call. Replace that urge with an alternate, incompatible behavior. Go out with some friends, watch a funny movie — just do something to keep yourself busy. Ultimately you must evaluate whether your ex is causing you more grief than happiness. Is it really worth the stress and heartache? Probably not.

6. Remember: You teach people how to treat you.

Don’t let anybody dump you and then try to use you whenever it’s convenient! You deserve better. Send the message that you’re moving on with your life, without your ex.

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“I crave a love so deep the ocean would be jealous”

Can’t sleep. My mind won’t shut off. Of course I get on Pinterest. The quote section always gets me. I get to thinking about Adam. Adam is a guy I’ve been seeing for a couple of weeks now. We have hung out three times and every time has been amazing. Now, he doesn’t text me until 6, sometimes 7pm. He is a busy guy with a child(who lives with her mom full time), a house, a great job, and heck, a life.

I keep thinking a day ahead; if he waits to text me until xx tomorrow, then I’m done with him. Lord knows I can’t do that. Every time we talk he says how much he wants to see me, it always sounds so sincere. I’m just not the clingy annoying type of girl to keep nagging him about hanging out. Now that 5 days have gone by since we last saw each other I’m starting to wonder if I should get the hint. Why can’t men just be honest? Then again, I keep all of my feelings bottled up like a coke.

My biggest fear in life aside from being unhappy, is being alone. I’ve always had my parents and siblings as friends, but now they are all getting older and here I am, the baby of the family, still living at home. No boyfriend, no house, and really, no friends. I keep saying I will save up and move out at the beginning of 2015. Heck, I don’t want to move out by myself and stare at the walls, BY MYSELF.

I have always thought that I was single because I had high standards. I still believe that, somewhat. I also believe that I don’t have enough self worth. Men are suppose to make women feel special. I feel like that is one of the most important things in a relationship, making one another feel special and loved.

So what, he hasn’t called or texted me today and it’s 8pm, I’ll text him. Wrong. I should be stronger, I deserve someone who wants to talk to me, see me, know about me, make me happy. The question is, will I ever find that someone?

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